a sky's lament. In New York, the night sky is crying “Love me! For you keep me from the stars. Love me. For you change my very nature Love me, for reflected in my ochre hue~view Is your candlelight lovemaking, Your street lamp romances, Your thousand books read by flashlight, Your discotheques, your rooftop s’mores, Your ironic selfies, your fasts, your fury, Your births, your cigarettes, your chosen sins. Your healing wounds, your sins forgotten I beg you, love me, for I feel blue Love me, for me. Love me, for you, for you I change my hue."
Dug up, displayed. The tulips I bought the day before I locked my door, they have wilted in a peculiar way. From the top down. The stems still vivid green, working to supply the dead reproductive organ. I wonder if they will notice. Should I toss them? I've been watching them for weeks, my colleagues no doubt wondering at my empty stare. The sun that bleached them of their vivre now gave them narrative. The petals hang limply, vivid gold, a dead queen's jewelry, dug up, displayed. Who conquered you? What man defiled this land to bring you forth and waste you so? Should I find him, should I rage, should I despair? Should I thank him, that you stay with me? No sweetness lingers upon the air you breathed, no honey born of flesh… How should I frame you, that I never be alone?
I want to be free As that bird from a song I have forgotten (whose song we all recall) Croning on about past harvests “How we ate!” “seeds!” “thoughts!” “eyes of crows!” (they passed their allotment) “We ate for days. It was a royal feast” (the crows were kings) The conversation was fulfilling And we were always right And we ate so much! Never went hungry Never confronted Ate even our words So heavy, so weighty, so full of meaning so damn free-spoken we took feed, to chew on (some took notes, to feed on)
I want to swallow the world Like a marble from my childhood Tasteless, hard, flawless, twisted blue on the inside When I was five I fit two in my mouth I could have fit more, but I only had two Enough to knock together Enough to know I could try again I want to swallow this world But I know like with my marble, I'll get a belly ache And laugh and laugh and pass it And reach into shit And see it unchanged, Twisted blue, with myself reflection A day older, hungry, With a second in my mouth
You got me twisted, here I linger A marionette with sticky fingers A beat too late to be the one Whose grace you let upon your throne My hands they finger at your heart at your command they steal it out Whose fault is it when I wake up Your fingers now upon my heart Squeezing the beat to which we salsa?
1. There's always a tomorrow, Hardly a today Please, ~justice~ oh judge, I demand a stay To staying another day Unchanging, to a death by slow decay Demanding change (I falter, hesitating, Forgetting, need reminding) Please, my judge, remind me! That your stroke could be a stroke, That your heartbreak could my heart break, That your choice could take my voice, That today could halt tomorrow That your ruling never waits That you could step, and I could stop Remind me, judge! That should I beg your mercy, That mercy came, as a reminder: (Yesterday I was drowning) Today I stand on solid ice Tomorrow could be sunny. 2. Remind me, judge! My judge, I beg your mercy “Justice” they call you I need not you just, but kind, My judge, be kind.
I bought the day with silence But the night could not be bribed. The moon asked for a dance The water beckoned - “take a chance” The silver blackened, the rivers raged And I stayed mum the stars promised true riches the wind whispered true secrets which the trees begged me to hear And I stayed mum And then the curtains parted I saw your open eyes I said -